Been feeling less than motivated lately. I know the drill and should have figured that I was getting sick. I have missed the last two days of work, mostly (been checking email and a couple of calls here and there). Of course, it could be that I was feeling less than motivated and that is why I got sick.
Been thinking about ambition as well. I don't think I have any, or at the very least, not much. Somehow though, I keep falling up at work. Not sure how that happens. I mean, I think I am good at my job. I don't think I am perceived as a "boss's pet" that gets by with ass kissing. Now I have more responsibility than I care for. What a drag.
A friend recently gave me a copy of the Underachiver's Manifesto-The Guide to Accomplishing Little and Feeling Great. I must say it is timely. It really lays out a path to happiness through underachieving. My favorite piece of advice is that if no one in your life thinks you're failing to live up to your full potential, then you've got work to do. I don't know nor do I care (not in a mean way, but in a whatever works for you way) if this makes sense to you. It does to me.
I like to think about it in a mechanical way. Look at a top fuel dragster or a Nascar or any racing vehicle. It is designed to operate in a top state of tune. It is designed to squeeze out every bit of horsepower possible in a given displacement. Great! But, the cost is great. It has to be rebuilt after every race. On the other hand, my little Ford Focus did not even need new sparkplugs for 100,000 miles. Sure, it is not going to win any race. But, at the end of the day, it is still functioning.